So, as you can probably imagine,
finding that it was time for me to go to college, get my driver’s license, get
a job, move out, was all quite hard for me. Every grown up thing I allow myself
to do literally feels like a piece of the child within me is being ripped away.
It is not a good feeling. So, when I was up late the other night finding myself
getting excited about my future, well, it also started me thinking about that
little girl inside who is nowhere near ready to disappear yet. And I don't ever
want her to. Staying young at heart, but yet admitting that it is inevitable
that you do need to grow up sometime, is a difficult balancing act. I know that
I can't live with my parents forever and I need to get a job. But does that
mean I have to “grow up”? Do I need to leave my childhood behind me and
"act like an adult" all the time? Or am I allowed to still be a kid
sometimes? It is important to be responsible. It's important to be able to take
care of yourself. But is it not just as important to let the child inside come
out and play sometimes? I think it is.
I still believe that it is possible
to be a responsible adult but to always be a child at heart. Where it really
matters. As I surprise myself by getting excited about my future and my adult
life, my favorite Peter Pan quote comes to mind. It reminds me that the
adventures, the fun in life happen in more than just your child hood. There are
grand adventures in adulthood too. And life is the adventure. So, as I set off
on this next great adventure, both the adult me and the child me both excited
and scared, I remember that "to live would be an awfully big adventure"
and living means growing up. It just doesn't have to be all the way...
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